Is “submit” a four-letter word? Do I cringe when I hear it?
This week I’ve had the privilege and joy of helping my friend Tesz lead worship at Teen Chapel. Wednesday morning, as we were rehearsing I realized that I had no clue as to how to regain control of my faltering, off-key vocal chords. If you know me well, you can probably imagine me very frustrated; I had to take a walk to cool off. As I was “cooling off,” I started praying for some guidance. As I was asking the Lord for guidance and conviction of sin, a word kept popping up in my head, “submit.”
Let’s fast-forward 12 hours. That evening, I fell privy to some displeasing news that actually did some solid damage to my already unsteady attitude. As I was sitting there, in this midst of this very revealing conversation, that “submit” word kept popping up in my head. “Submit to what, Lord?!”
“My sovereignty, the fact that My ways are not your ways, that Christ-likeness is what I desire most from you…take your pick and submit. Submit to Me. Not because that act will alter my plans for you, but because of who I am.”
So… I walk into the Teen Palace this morning to find Tesz sitting at the piano pounding out “It is Well with My Soul.” He looks up at me and says with his big grin, “we’re going to sing this one, ok?” Awww….man….. If we were going to lead the teens in a beautiful version on “It is Well,” I would have mean the words I was singing. As we rehearsed, they desperately became my prayer.
Tho’ Satan should buffet, tho’ trials should come
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ hath regarded my helpless estate
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.
Last night before bed, I read Psalm 105 and the part in the book of Job where God asks Job and his buddies if they were there when he created the world. It was extremely refreshing to be reminded who I’m called to worship, and how knowing who He is should be enough to sustain me.
And Lord haste the day, when the faith shall be sight
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll,
The trump shall resound and the Lord shall descend,
“Even so” – It is well with my soul!
“Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls, For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30