Thursday 8/31/06 8:30 am
What is it about true obedience that scares me? God has recently developed in my heart a yearning to fully follow after Him and His Word, but my actions say differently. My thought-life says differently. So what is it that I’m scared of? That’s what it is ultimately: Fear.
I’ve been working through this book, called “Seeking Him,” and the exercise I’m working through now is hard. I’m supposed to be working through one section a day, and this particular one I’ve been working on for well over two weeks. It’s a list of qualities that we’re supposed to “put off” and “put on.” For example:
“Put off…Lack of Love” (1 John 4:7-8,20) and “Put on…Love (John 15:12)”
Then your supposed to read the scripture, while opening up your heart to the Spirit and check the box if you need to repent and “put on love”.
There’s 64 of these. I’m on number 16 and checking more boxes than I’d like to admit.
So what is it about living out the Word that God has place in my heart, that I just don’t get. I really desire to, but don’t have the strength to act it out. I think I can sympathize with Paul when he said, “For I know nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out” (Romans 7:18)”
But then he goes on to say, “There is therefore no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. For the law of the spirit of life has set you free in Christ Jesus from the law of sin and death” (Romans 8:1-2).